Maybe you could listen to it while doing housework? I did that kind of thing a lot when I was still living with Mr Negative.
Your need to have your H's love and approval is a huge source of suffering for you. I know that suffering. It hurts so much to see an ugly horrible version of myself mirrored in H's eyes. But the truth is that he has never been a true mirror. Even when he mirrored that I was a wonderful, sexy woman he wasn't a true mirror.
This is a growth opportunity for us. An opportunity to cultivate self worth independent of others' opinions of us. There was a time when we existed and had value before we even met our H. Our M with them doesn't erase our value even if they blame us for all of their problems and dysfunctions.
I really believe in The Work that Byron Katie teaches, and I'd like to try working with one of the phone facilitators -- avermont had a really positive experience with that.
Anyway, wishing you peace today Hope. We don't have to suffer. We can choose to question our thoughts and beliefs, because that's where our suffering comes from.
(((Hope)))
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me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
