Faith without works... (my new thread)

[james217]

Why are you shouting when you type? Why do you have to say "freakin" to get your point across? Why are you so defensive when you hear things you do not like?

Over the course of a few weeks you talked about suicide, leaving your parents home in the middle of the night and moving to a shelter THEN the next day you were okay THEN you were for sure going dark, then gray, now we are nuts to even suggest such a thing and the cycle continues.

Yes, you and your WAW seem to blame an awful lot on other people. If your W knew paperwork was coming and she had not received it for TWO months and her income/medical insurance was riding on the paperwork why didn't she follow up with the person who sent it? It's not your SIL's fault, it's your W fault for not taking care of her own business and being diligent.

You are all over the map and until you are ready to stop reeling and running in circles nothing will change. Since you asked, no, I see nothing positive with what is going on. It's drama and surface changes/gestures. It may not always be that way but for now it is IMO.

Yes I was thinking about going to a shelter. Yes I said I did not want to be here. I also found out that those thoughts were brought on by my untreated diabetes.

Nobody could tell me what the issue was. WHy I kept getting sick. I saw alot of doctors. I was getting frustrated. So now i'm fine.

I've started working on my own issues by changing therapists, working on setting some goals, prayer and evaluating myself.

How did we not follow up? I consistently emailed her supervisor. The medical POA was notarized and signed by both of us in case anything like this ever happened. It was faxed and provided to her as well. She stated that she had everything she needed and after SICK LEAVE RAN OUT then FLMA would start. She even mailed a certified packet to us and we filled it out and turned it in. We gave her the medical forms. It's kind of hard for WAW to do that when she's consistently in the freaking hospital or at the doctor. But I stayed in consistent contact. She lost her job behind doing this type of nonsense. Alot of other employees went to the union and complained as well.

WAW came to her job at the beginning of MAY and picked up her last check and the woman mentioned nothing about needing any additional forms. We both asked. 2 weeks later she was terminated and we found out when she was checking on her pension and trying to fill out her time sheet and could not login.

WAW mind totally shut down after all those seizures. it's still not right. She just had an eeg about 2 weeks ago. She's still under doctor's care.

Paternal Grandmother knows all this but she doesn't care. She just wants SD8 so she can keep all her little benefits and knows that unless she convinced a woman who is still supposed to be in counseling and taking antidepressants to give up the rights to her daughter after browbeating her and threatening her and not allowing her to see SD8 when she went down there. she purposely waited until she got down there to pull this nonsense.

I rant and rave on here. I thought I could do that. Then I go about my day like a normal functioning person. I cry and get a little deprssed but my therapist says that's normal.

No one said whoo hoo we had 3 dates everything is fixed. I know it's going to take alot of work. I haven't said man everything is back to normal she should come home now.

I'm working through things. I express alot of my thoughts on here.

But like I stated at least we are scratching the surface. At least we can have conversations without blowups. That's progress. At least we can have a few dates. At least we can enjoy each others company express our opinoins and confide and laugh and joke and be loving.

I'm going to this final interview for this job. I think I will pass with flying colors and start work in a week. That's progress.

I had a successful court case on monday. that's progrss.

WAW is atually listening to me about a few things. that's progress.

So instead of reminding me what happened yesterday and the day before? Why not focus on the positive things i'm trying to and the few things i have accomplished.

Finally getting my rigid contact lens is progress. finally finding out about a halth condition that I didn't know about and how to treat it is progress.

losing the weight and exercising is progress.

finding out what can be done to repair my right eye on friday is progress.

Filling out over 500 applications and getting interviews is progress.

admitting I need help and getting it is progress.

a man has to crawl again before he can walk.

I had hit rock bottom and i'm still standing and you know what? to me that is progress.