H4L H knows whats shes done over the years, he even know that she cold shouldered me for some thing S did but made everyone think it was me!
Trouble is he has rose tinted glasses about what shes done in the past, and he thinks shes changed now...
Think that Im gonna just have to let this one go and only bring it up when it compromises our R when parents use it to try and get between us (H & I)..
Struggling atm seems like hes more distant/la la land/WAS, or should I say no aware of our R needing nurturing.. I was upset last night as he said he was coming to bed and never turned up till two hours later, it rattled my insecurity of him not wanting to be with me before even though I feigned sleep and didnt say anything, on top of that went to check what day his birthday was on to find hes supposed to be away all that weekend all four days..
This got talked about this morning, he cuddled me quickly as if in trouble, but I just made out I was sleepy, he asked if he was in trouble a bit like a small boy, so just validated it wasnt he was in trouble but I was upset about what had happened, and his lack of time for his birthday.. Apparently stuff on calendar is just so he knows not concrete, duh how am I supposed to know whats what! and also the long weekend he planned on asking me to go with him, duh my mind reading isnt too good either.. Just feel he is slipping back into uncommunicative land due to his depression..
All I seem to do is work work and more work! and yesterday to boot I came home and did house chores as he had spent his time doing some hobby stuff for himself.. arrhhhhhhh WHY did I want him back oh to just WAW, all made worse by all of us at work discussing what we would do if we won the 17m lottery rollover this weekend..
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
