Yes, bluestar, I know you're right. I was walking by him and just as an afterthought, out of habit, threw the blanket on him, I never should have done that .
Saffie, H acts like a jerk when he wins - he says he competes against himself and no one else, but even DSD doesn't want to play with him b/c he makes them feel bad. He says he's teaching them to win, I say he's a sore winner. I gave up bowling with him years ago, which is why MIL offered to teach DSD and I how to bowl, so I could do the 180 and maybe with enough practice kick his butt. Would make me feel good. I don't really care about how he feels about winning, it makes him feel superior, and I want to win against him. I'm sticking with my plan on bowling, b/c it's something I enjoyed as a child, something the family likes and a way to make H sit up and take notice. He liked when I beat him at things early on in our R, and it would engage him in more behavior with me to try to beat me, taking me out more, etc. Don't know where I gave you the impression that I beat him in job/money, he makes a bit more than I do. I've been with the company for 2 years, he's been there 12.
I get the rest of what you're saying, though. Thanks for the insight... I am working on my patience.
Anyway, on to me. I need to get new clothes, woo hoo! Sort of... an expense I can't afford right now, I'll be heading to the second hand store I guess since I probably won't be in this size for long either. Going out tonight to a work function, a dinner at a nice Inn, should be good. Hope H and I can go out after for a few drinks and have a good time... maybe some friends will be there for us to hang with so it's not so awkward. (Don't want to feel like it's a date or anything) Looking forward to it.
I don't have any friends that I hang out with, so I've been pursuing a few men at work for some dates. Not like that, group things. I work in a factory, so it's mostly men I know, and a few of them are in bands or know people in bands, so I'm trying to get together a group to go out. Also, one plays paintball and DSD and her friend want to play again, so I'm trying to get together a group for that... most seem to have given up the sport years ago. Will feel good to have friends again. The one thing I worry about is that all of my interests are the same as H's interests - just because we always liked the same type of things. Paintball was his first, but then I got into it. So will it seem like pursuit if he finds out? Anyway, don't plan on telling him about it. I don't know, maybe I shouldn't because DSD will open her mouth and let him know. It's hard to do this GAL thing since everything I do revolves around him... just b/c we were always that couple that did everything together and b/c we truly enjoy all the same things. Mountain biking, hiking, eating/good food, that sort of thing. It's what kept us together for so long, and part of why we're where we are (we stopped doing things as a couple, and it was probably THE most important thing to H)
