nope, fb2, you are wrong. He is the one saying the morning job is the more secure, he has been there for 13 years, his contract says he needs to be at that job min 4 hours a day (!!!!) and he is the boss of his dept (the big boss is, as of last year -how things turn out in life- a friend of his, one that was even present at our wedding). But it is a job he got back in 1997 because he was a journalist but it is not a "writing" job. Also, the money is less than the evening job and the health/pension insurance is different.
He tried to quit his evening job 3 months ago only to withdraw his resignation. THAT is NOT a secure job. He has other options, he just doesnt see them now. He says he feels trapped. I am not going to push him or fight with him over this. This is HIS thing, his decision and I am done mothering him. If he wants my oppinion I will gladly give it but that's it. If he wants my support, he will have it but that's about it.
We were together last night. With the kids, at home. He had the night off. I had a lousy mood and failed to reach out to him, it is so hard when I was trying to learn not to, for 2 years. What I did manage to do was, to be quiet, non-aggressive, not hostile.
I am having troubles with the thought of the OW. I am obssessing again. I am reading books etc but nothing seems to help. I noticed it happens now and then. Comes as a wave, leaves as a wave... I need to discuss it with him. I wonder if my antennas have picked up something again. Wouldnt surprise me at all, in fact I am being careful cause something feels "funny"... K
