VETERANS VIEWS ON WALKING AWAY.

[Surviving03]

I LOVE this thread... this is my state of mind now. I still love H very much...but I just dont give a crap anymore. I am starting to do my own thing without thinking, what will H think of this?? Will this make H mad?? sad?? annoyed?? who cares?! he wasnt concerned about my feelings in his actions...and now im not concerned with his.

I looked at H the other day trying to figure out what it is I NEED about him... and with what he has to offer right now... not a darn thing.... the only things he has to offer (good looks and good sex life) I can get elsewhere.... he doesnt make me feel good about myself, doesnt make me feel loved, special, beautiful, nothing, not anymore... I can get good looks and sex from any old jerk if that is what I wanted for myself.

I can tell he is noticing my GAL and lack of concern of what is going to happen with us... it seemed to really be getting to him yesterday... and I dont care.

If this leads to a turning point for us...so be it... if not...so be it. I see how many friends I have, people who do love and care about me...other guys that are interested in me... if H isnt interested, someone else will be. I am young, I got a whole big life ahead of me... Hey H! if you dont want to jump on board... the ship is sailing away w/o you!