Oh, yes, I can see how you read that wrong. Sorry, I meant MIL had plans to teach us to bowl some time, not tonight. He just was feeling like I was saying I didn't want to go with him because we already had plans to go with someone else. See, H is very competitive and won't teach me anything. Bowling is a 180 for me, as I stopped going since he made me feel stupid for doing it... I wanted to learn to bowl, he knows, MIL was on a league, and he just never would teach. He figures out physical stuff quickly, I need to learn by someone explaining it to me. He made me feel bad when he'd win and I'd always lose. He just didn't get that I wanted him to teach me, although I would ask... he's not much of a teacher.
Anyway, it's 12:30 and I'm going to bed alone. I went into the living room where he slept last night and folded some clothes and cleaned up. We watched some funny stuff, he drank two large glasses of wine, and fell asleep. I got up to go to bed, it's cold, so I took my blanket - was going to just leave him in his clothes on the couch, but instead I put it over him and got up for bed. He woke up, asked where the blanket came from, I told him I was going to bed and didn't need it, and I assume you're not coming to bed? He said no, I made no big deal about it, just said OK, good night. Took the dogs and here I am.
Disappointed, but not surprised.
So, good, now I have one more goal to add to my list...get H back into bed with me. This may be a bit of a longer road than I thought. I hope he freezes tonight. LOL. Sorry, just feeling a bit nasty.
All in all, on a scale of 1-10, I'd say tonight was a 4. Not spectacularly great, and not very good, but better than the night before. Lots of laughs, no messing up on my part with R talk or pursuing (except maybe asking if he was coming to bed, but I really didn't make a big deal about it at all... 50-50 there, I guess) He shared with me a funny video, which is a baby step. He had been just showing children, but included me tonight. I did notice I haven't been making eye contact with him, I guess I trained myself not to since he stopped looking at me.
Sad, but just 5 weeks ago, I had an email from him after staying at the apartment all night without calling where he apologized and explained to me that he drank and fell asleep (I say passed out, but whatever) and was I mad. I didn't reply right away, so he emailed again - are you mad at me or just done with me. Stupid, this was before I was certain of OW and I said something to the effect of - I have patience, I will never be done with you. Wish I knew then what I know now, that answer would have been different. But it was that short of a time ago that he told me he was a complete mess at work, couldn't concentrate trying to figure out things with me, and was worried I would leave him. Now he's "done" with us, just a bit over a month later.
Well, to bed, things will look better tomorrow. Good luck all of you and best wishes for a great day tomorrow for all of us.
LOL. Sorry, just feeling a bit nasty. 
