She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

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My W came over today to bring me my phone charger. Somehow as we were staring at each other not knowing what to say we got on the conversation of the R.

I was wanting to make some financial decisions that she didn't want me to do yet. Then I told her I didn't want to do this. She asked me if I understand why she wanted to it. I told her I realized the way she felt but didn't completely understand.

She spent allot of time crying, and we went back and forth on how we each felt. After I while I told her that I wanted to be her strength and shoulder to lean on. She told me she didn't need strength just someone to talk to. I told her I was here go ahead and talk.

She talked to me for a good long while just talking about her other than R issues. I never offered any advice, just listened and gave response when warranted.

After more crying by her I asked her if she wanted a hug and she shook her head yes. I went over and held her for about 5 minutes while she continued to talk to me.

She was again happy to see that we weren't arguing. I told her that I had already assured her I wouldn't argue. By the end of our talk she said that maybe if we continue to talk like that she'll be able to trust me. I assume she meant trusted that I'm for real and not fake.

My children still don't understand why mom isn't home, but I'm just trying to be there for them. I had a very long talk with my D to try and get her to open up and talk about things. It was a very good talk, and she knows she can talk to me.

I still hold on to hope,but we all know how these things can turn. I just need to continue doing what I'm doing and see what the future holds. For now, I'm really enjoying being with my daughters. We're having fun together and D14 is being very helpful. I still wish the house wasn't missing someone.