H4L...
Just reading your sitch a bit. I agree with what the other folks are saying here. He's emotionally abusing you. Uhm... going dark is the best thing for you to do at this point.

First off... all people HATE rejection. It's human nature. I've learned a lot through my journey and thanks to the folks from this site (been back together for a year)...one of the things about going dark that is truly empowering is it gives you back control. Right now your H is using rejection to rule you. Time to get back on even ground. Detaching and going dark puts him in the rejection seat. People do NOT like being rejected and thus all the more enticing is the concept of wanting what they can't have.

You're giving the boy the milk for free. Ya know?

Best wishes
Abbey

T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.