with a new dude. Engaged to him and pregnant with the new dude's baby.
But my insecurities are so high.
Our main problem now is him and his whole ilybinilwu crap. He thinks we should S so he can focus on our finances bc he can't think about our marriage right now. We r in MC and he has told her this. He is not sure if he even wants this marriage but yet he is still going to MC and hasn't filed for S. He also thinks that by S he will miss me and appreciate what he has. He also holds alot of resentment towards me. Thinks the A was my fault because I was unmoving towards him.
I need someone with me with a yard stick to whack me whenever I get the idea to start a fight with him.
It's just so hard to even believe that this is my H. It's like watching an imposter.
He is just stone cold. Hollow. Empty.
I need to detach and GAL. Just very hard with three little ones you know?
He is still out.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
