Faith without works... (my new thread)

[james217]

i think one of the main things that WAW is seeing is seeing me get it together. She sees me not waiting for every freaking call. She sees me not texting all the freaking time. She even sees other women staring at me when we're together. (she commented about that the other day)

I think she expeted me to fall apart without her. I did for about 3 weeks.

Now i'm doing things to get MY LIFE ON TRACK. If she's here I have to do it. if she's not here I still have to do it.

The other day at the HOTEL when I was about to walk out I actually saw fear in her eyes and HEARD IT IN HER VOICE.

I'm keeping pushing. I'm still 50/50 on this darkness thing. I thought my 180s were getting posotive results lately. Maybe Ill reread my db/dr books tonight to get more clairty on alot of stuff.

The thing is I'M STILL NEW and people expect me just to understand all of this stuff overnight. It wasn't easy for any of you guys so why should it be for me?