What does this mean?- the WH's regrets?

[gatsby11]

Nice link. Detachment, yes. . . I also want to see that success story you talked about on BD's thread!

Piano, I lost it completely in the beginning, too! Seriously. I was in a bedroom, crying CONSTANTLY. (His sister's guest bedroom.) I was anxiously searching all websites looking for answers. (Not really getting to this one very easily, though!) I sent him that one email, of course, and I tried to reason with him when we met, but other than that it was me and tears.

In fact, I also got a cough from a cold around the same time and I BRUISED MY LUNGS from so much sobbing and coughing! It took at least a month for the lungs to recover.

Not to mention not sleeping. . . just crying and searching the Internet. . . the only time I wasn't crying was when I was with students!

(And I've never heard myself sob that way before. It was almost Biblical with the "tearing of clothes and gnashing of teeth"!)

I'm glad those days are over. Really, what really helped was knowing that every tear was making me stronger. Even now, I get a tad weepy from time to time, and I know that those moments I'll be able to handle easier the next time, too. Such a process.

But the worst is over. Hallelujah! I will never go back to that place again with this WH.

Had a checkup today and they're giving me another sonogram this upcoming Friday. . . I guess I'm not big enough for 31 weeks. I'm just hoping that petite mama= petite baby and she's okay. We'll see on Friday.

'Til next time!