I know i don't have a right to post on your thread but i just wanted to say that you sound like you are feeling better than before and you are going in the right direction .
Let him stew in his squalid life and you shine with yours !!
I found that reconnecting with old friends helped me feel better and made me remember that i was once a great person before all this happened .
I hope you can schedule a time to do this and feel even better with yourself....the rest will follow ...maybe slowly but it WILL happen. J
