I'm glad to hear from you and sorry you are in such a bad place right now. Hopefully this is the worst of the worst.
I haven't been able to post, or keep up, either, but I do keep checking for you.
Does it break all the DB board rules if I give you my cell#? Better to give out that private info on FB, but you aren't there, yet. I would so love to talk with you.
I don't suppose there is anything to say but to urge you to talk to friends, sisters, whomevers. You haven't mentioned much of a support group. Do you have a circle of friends that you have been able to lean on? or even a reliable one or two? You really need to be able to go sob on someone's shoulder in the real world, though of course all of us here are here for you, too.
I hope you can get the S. agreement through soon, so you can protect your money that you got from your mom.
My heart is with you--please keep moving ahead on the packing and moving so you can get out of the house. Making that change may do you a world of good.