Huband is having an emotional affair

[ALJ]

It has been a busy day for me but I really don't mind. If I sit around and do nothing, then I start to think about my sitch and all the problems that go along with it. Allen, now I see your point about the money H is spending on rent to live somewhere else. It is money that could be contributing to our household. I believe you pointed this out to me before and I apologize if you had to keep repeating this point to me. My mind gets scattered sometimes with the things that are going on.

Today, I went to finish up our taxes and found out that we owe the feds again so no refund this time :-(. I also tried to find out about legal aid and was told that I have to be one of the first three callers starting at 9am on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Wednesdays, in order to talk to someone at the legal aid office. I called the Lawyers Project also and no one answered the phone so I left a message. Their message system stated that it might take a month for someone to call me back. I guess there is a lot of folk who needs legal aid these days because it sounds like it is going to be a wait in order for me to speak to someone regarding my situation.

The next order of business is finding a family therapist. I looked in the phone book and there is quite a few. How does one know who to call? I think there are some questions that you should ask them concerning infidelity in a marriage that I saw somewhere in the forum. I have to go back and see if I can find them. It will be a year on May 1st that H walked away. It feels like I have made no progress in my DB efforts. Maybe I am doing the wrong things. He seems so far gone in his mind, on a path to self destruction, and running faster and faster away from us.

I have made strides in trying to get my life together for myself and my kids. School is now finished for me and the next thing on my personal agenda is getting a job and getting more certifications under my belt. No one said it would be easy but all of the work that I am doing for myself will pay off eventually. Right now, I am all that my children have and can depend on when it comes to H and I. This is what keeps me going. Hope everyone is having a good day.