I understand the defeated feeling. do not dwell on whether your H will return or not. You must save yourself before that can ever happen successfully anyways.

definitely get back into the GALing again, doing the things that you love to do. If you do not, then your H will have no chance of discovering the real you and obviously you won't either. You must discover that beautiful girl first, and you must do this for yourself, not to win your H back.

those positives from your H are good things. Those are steps in the right direction and steps that need to happen. But you must stay on the path to saving yourself, otherwise his path will be blocked.

(((DU)))

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."