I thought the dates were a little positive. I thought the confiding was too and her talking and us just having fun and enjoying each others company? The way she talked and acted was different. We both admitted that.
Alot of my happiness is coming from just getting out there applying for jobs and just getting positive results and interviews.
I feel like she's slowly starting to trust a little bit more. But I don't know.
I feel so much healthier! i'm eating better. I'm losing the weight. I feel more full of energy. I make sure I go to bed and get some rest.
I get discouraged about a few things. I mean right now she's NC and i'm not a basket case with alot of calls and texts! I would expect me to do the opposite after the fun we just had.
It was very hard for me not to ML but once I explained she understood and we had fun. Then she told me about SD8 and we talked a little about it but neither wanted to ruin the good encounter (we both agree to try to end every encounter on a positive note) so we let it be until lunch the next day.
Then we discussed it some she said she wanted to have another good lunch and not discuss it in public and we'd talk more later.
she called and left a vm stating she made it in. then she sent a few texts. Then i called back a few hours later and she was sleepy so she called when she woke up and I had shut it down for the night.
Then today she's been NC.
but like i said i'm not a big ball of nerves. I'm pretty much posting about the sd8 thing and school and job because i'm frustrated and needed to let off a lil steam. I'll call counselor later and we'll talk about that too.
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch