feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

I would change the locks in a heartbeat. I'm waiting on info to go to owH. This is just something I wanted to do before I serve papers. I keep thinking on how I can change the locks and serve him later but that gives him time to plan and lock me out of our bank account (well stop direct deposit)

He will be evil. He will fight me for everything. I have to be careful how I go about this. He will not listen to me that this is affecting the kids. I've already told him countless times how the kids are upset and depressed. He doesn't care.

I haven't written any letter to his email. The last letter I wrote was around Christmas time and he didn't even respond - that hurt like hell because it was heart felt. I will never forget that.

Anyway...I'm having a bad day as you can tell. I've been crying all morning (out of sadness and frustration) and I have to suck it up because my older son will be home very soon I don't want him to see me upset. He is so loving.

I'm pissed because I'm sad.

Luv