Faith without works... (my new thread)

[james217]

So what's next? Uh I really dont knowwwwwwww. Am I going in the right direction? I hope so.

The college just called. I cannot get back in school right now. So no teaching. It's not fair at all. How long am I going to pay for a past sin?

I did not even do it. I was even exonerated and had my name cleared but everyone from cps to college wants to keep bringing up a past situation and using it against me.

The cps report for SD8 hurt me so much. I was barely 18. Now my name has been cleared and I want to work and just live a happy life. The judge and da knows i did not do that. Yet someway they still manage to find it. I've checked the dps it's not there. But it's somewhere, It really gets to me. But such is life.

sometimes I feel like a prisoner trapped in my own body. That I'm not going to succeed. I feel so hopeless. I feel like I am trying so hard to succeed and be a good father and husband and it's not going to happen.

I just have to hope I get a 2nd chance. I love computers and business and helping and even with a clear name I know it's still there. It wasn't a sex crime or nothing.

A wrong place at the wrong time crime. I did the probation for five years even though I knew I was innocent then finally my name is clear. But they will always see it somehow.


If they couldn't it wouldn't have been used in the cps case to take SD8 and make paternal grandmother hate me. Deep down inside I think that's why WAW fears me too. who knows. I'll just go to all of these services and keep applying for jobs.

Thjis is why I'm so angry. My life changed that day.