BD, he's feeling guilty. In my opinion, you did well to state your boundaries and hold them.
It's good you apologised for the manner in which you spok to H. Nothing wrong with sucking that up.
Did you read the advice Allen gave me? Don't be his mother - let him make his mistakes and step up to the plate himself. Don't block him, but don't help him either. He has to work his own way out of the hole he has dug himself in to be worthy of you.
I know this is easy said...and so hard to do, especially when you love and care for someone you think has 'fallen'. I'm with ya.
I am a little way ahead of you (not by much) but I wish I spent a lot less time (and still do) trying to 'figure' out a way to get H to "click".
Best advice on this website: tell your spouse you are OK with theor decision. You're still in the begging and pleading and haranging stage ( I was there for two solid months post bomb and some days are so full of rage and hurt that I could easily slip back there - but that's why I have cut all contact..I am building to the day where I can communicate with him in a way that is detached, and hopefully loving..maybe not the loving part..we'll see), but it only makes the sitch more difficult for both of you.
So, a gentle reminder.. Be the BIGGER person. Don't plead. Don't argue. Tell him you're just fine without him.
A Sucess story by Britt has just been posted in Newcomers. Worth a look.
Hugs to you and good to hear again that bub is well after those mysterious contractions!
