BUNS, ABS, AND HEART OF STEEL #3

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I've spent a lot of time reading and thinking and while I would like very much to believe that I would be better the second time around, I also know that that is what MOST people think:

I will not make the same mistakes.
I will not find someone with the same sorts of problems.
I will be a better person.

etc..

However, I also see my responsibility in the situation. I don't think I am AS responsible because X was the one who had the affair and walked out, but I also recognize that I did certain things that contributed to the problems and maybe I could have nipped those things in the bud.

With that said, a conscious decision to examine those things and also to try to make changes in one's self is a real start.

I am trying to understand the role that I had in the situation, too. I am finding that I have become more colorful, creative, and open since X left. I realize that I played the martyr and I don't want to do that any more.