1. exhausted. I am sick and tired of the insomnia. It is really dragging me down and not helping at all with the procrastination. I lived for about six years in a total fog of sleep deprivation. Now that both of my kids are finally sleeping better, it's torture to now be dealing with insomnia from the ADs. I'm going to try to get an appt soon and ask for something to help with sleep . I don't have the energy to exercise, be present with my kids, focus on work -- mostly because I'm SO TIRED.
2. feeling really positive about focusing on myself and getting on with my life. The 2x4s and chats with Gnosis and the book that I read yesterday and my own spiritual beliefs are all pointing me in the same direction. I am not willing to be stuck any more. I see that I can choose not to suffer. I don't know exactly what that looks like, but my mind is opening to the awareness that I can make that choice.
Great quotation from Munson's book: "Because whether or not he comes back to me, I will be ultimately empowered by my commitment not to suffer. It's a way of life. A way to life."
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
. I don't have the energy to exercise, be present with my kids, focus on work -- mostly because I'm SO TIRED.
