Sandi, wow, thank you for putting everything into context and making it so easy to take in. Not that I haven't very much appreciated everyone's help and support on here, but what you said really, really hits home for me. I became very upset with myself over the last week or so as I looked back and started to realize that I really wasn't the kind of man that could be the leader of a family, hell, I couldn't even lead myself. It does make sense for me to not say anything about her trying to work on us or not trying to fix things. I know she already feels frustration from her trying what she had been trying before and it not working. I know that these things that I have to start stepping up and doing aren't going to come naturally to me at first, but I am fighting that urge to avoid them that is still there and it is getting easier. Like I said, I'm taking care of house/family things right away, not moping around the house, I'm almost back to my normal sleep routine, I'm not walking around the house like I'm scared to bother her, ect.
I do have a situation that happened last night that I'm not sure about. I was watching some TV in bed, already brushed my teeth, getting ready to go to bed, and she comes in to go to the bathroom to get ready for bed herself, afterward, she comes right to our bed and gets in. She asked me if I wanted to watch the United States of Tara episode that was on our DVR from earlier. So, we are watching that and with about 10 minutes left, she asks if we can watch the rest of it tomorrow. Then, she rolls over to face me and starts to initiate intimacy. I am really unsure at this point if she's just desperate and using me, but at the same time, I have learned over the years that most women won't just share themselves for the sake of it, that there has to be some emotional connection or feeling. And at the same time, I am thinking that any intimacy and closeness that she wants to have with me is a good thing. So, we fool around for a while, no sex though. Afterward, she giggles and thanks me. We lay there for a few minutes and out of nowhere, she says that she thinks she's going to sleep in the other room. I say that's ok, but I'm just curious why. She says that she's not sure she should have done that. I tell her that it's totally ok for her to go to the other room. So, at this point, it's like 12:30 and I go to sleep. I notice that her laptop is back on, from the glow under the door. So, at about 3:00, she comes and wakes me up and asks if she can go ahead and sleep in our bed, that the dog was bothering her and she couldn't get comfy. So, how should I read all of that?
