I love how you put it. As I began accepting that I had a bigger problem than many men, I've been cautious to not internally use it as a crutch. I am around my W because I know that one day in the next 5-10 years it will likely happen again. What then? She's sworn that she'll D if it ever did reoccur. Ever. Even once.
If I had any track record of success greater than 5 months, I wouldn't worry. But, I haven't. 5 months was my max. With help, I'm sure I can get that to a year, and eventually 3 years, then prayerfully forever. But in 6 months forever?
Thanks for the reminder though. I probably need to change the way I both think and speak about it.
