yesterday and last night was not a good night at all. I honestly just feel plain and simple sadness. I didn't talk to my W at all when she first came over after work. Then she comes outside with me while I'm having a smoke and she asks me if I'm upset, why aren't you talking to me, she says. And thats when I just let it all go. I tell her her I am sad, that I don't want to talk because there is no way to say anything to her because I'll break down. I tell her that I don't deserve this that I miss her that I love her. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. I'm just sad, i don't know what else to do.
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Have you written down a list of the issues that you did bring to the M? Have you figured out what changes you need to make? I mean really change...you have indicated that you were controlling? Other than finances were you controlling? Did you value her input into the things? Did you give her the freedom to make mistakes? Think about buddy.
I have written down what I brought to the M. I know what changes I need to make and I really can. Yes I valued her input in all things. Yes I gave her freedom to make mistakes, I gave to her more than I probably should have and that is why I am missing her so much. I put alot of my heart into our R and M. And I just never felt like I was getting the same in return. Did it make me love her any less? No it didn't. I just tried harder but i never spoke to her LL. Never is strong I didn't speak to her LL as much as she wanted. But it is two people, a give and take. I want her back.....
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
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