I do not know your entire sitch. I have only read the last several posts.
Though my M is unfortunately ending in D, I am one who believes, wholeheartedly, that M is forever.
However, if your H has truly said and even "convinced" you that he "hates you" and has said to you that you aren't "worth it"....I really believe you are better off without him. He is an emotional and verbal abuser. IMHO, that is the worst kind there is.
PLEASE DO NOT EVER BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE NOT WORTH ANYTHING. You are NOT wrong - your H is, because a well person wouldn't hurt another human being like that.
Let him go. I am not saying "get a D". I am just saying let him be and only worry about taking care of yourself.
(((You can do this)))
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
