still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Thanks flowmom! there have been a bunch of little steps that I have taken and been a little mysterious but it is totally authentic! And for me, fake it til you make it has helped but I couldn't fake being prepared for divorce so I was not about to pretend. Nor could I fake doing a good NC so I didn't want to try.

I did bring up daycare in a roundabout way today, telling him about this lady I saw in the park and something she told me about daycare but he didn't say anything! I ignored him because I was typing on here and looking something up on the internet but he was initiating conversation about S.

Earlier today S was being really fussy (not his usual state) and by the time WH got here I said I needed to go get a beer and I'd be back later. He said "he wasn't fussy during the weekend" (when WH was watching him) and I said "lucky you." and he said "Oooooh!!!" heh heh!