Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

So I've calmed down a lot, feeling exhausted and sleepy already (8pm) so I wanted to jot down a few thoughts:

1. I need to end all expectations from her side and expect worst. That way I won't feel shattered by her actions. OK how do I do this? lol

2. I need to think about this stuff from my own and DD's point of view, nothing beyond that

3. I'll never know what she's thinking, who she's consulting etc so I need to stop thinking about what she's thinking...right.

4. I should act like her 'just fine on the surface'. Let her wonder if I know about her filing the D or not. If she asks 'yep, my L told me' - nothing more.

5. Don't follow through with my plan to wrap a paper that says D I V O R C E in a nice package and hand it to her for her as her b.day present "it's what you've been asking for for many years!"

6. Give my mind some much needed rest.