P, the letter is perfect! nice touch! maternity leave... how awesome! this is your time to get ready for your little one! iknow how hard it is but throw yourself into baby mode. do anything and everything positive, and with love! i truly wish you the best!
i am only 27 weeks, but started having contractions... went to the hospital today, thought i felt a bit odd and that i was having light cramping. Doc says i was having a contraction an hour... but it was normal and to be expected. Fingers crossed! but all is well with the little guy! H and I decided after some ugly words (mostly nasty texts and calls on my part)that it is best we not speak right now. It is physically taking a toll on me and i need to be strong for this pregnancy. sitting in the hospital it was extremely hard knowing that H was not there. I told him i was on the way, and told him not to show up. He wrote me several times to ask how i was and what was going on. my mom called H to give him the update and he sounded concerned and upset, but understood why i wanted the distance. he just sent a text tonight asking how i was feeling.
i think as scarry as today was, it was a wake up call for me. i need to stop crying and carrying on. i need to stop focusing on the WAH and stp feeling sorry for myself. i need to let H go and let him come to terms with whatever it is he is going through and trust that in the end we will be both be happy, hopefully together, but if not, then apart. am i silly for still be so hopeful. for believing in our love. for thinking he is going through some sort of crisis and will someday (really soon) come out of it.
i could really use a miracle right about now.
the geraniums are red! and make me happy every night i walk into the house and see them.
