James - thank you for that

LSG - that is just what I told H...that he was not protecting our family from outside threats (ow ho) they don't get it...and if they do...it'll be too late.

OTMT - when his paws are on me I tell him "I can't do this I don't know where you've been" and he keeps trying. He doesn't leave feeling totally rejected because I don't do that. I pacify him until he goes to sleep. There have been two times I gave in a while back. He seems to enjoy being with me..that has never been our problem. Then again he doesn't ever discuss it the next day. If you are expecting proper communication you've got the wrong H.

I don't know about ever trusting him again. He could be the perfect H and I would still wonder. The only consistent thing he's ever done is provided...yes he is a good provider and I've always respected him for that. Did you hear that Mr. Luv? one thing you haven't taken away from me!

Your posts are insightful and get me thinking. Thank you for your input. I continue to appreciate everyone's advice/support.

Luv


M44 H41
M20 T23
3 older teens
Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy"
EA Nov 09 w/coworker
Another PA in Mar 10
I Filed Apr 10
D final Dec 10