Great weekend, OK day at work...desperately need to better my career choices...still looking into options...my friend is holding me accountable so that is helping the fire stay stoked.
Received a call from W...missed it replied via text: "yes?" W "Nevermind, felt like talkin, at the gym now" "good for you..."
Of course the LBS in me wanted to add- I meant good for you that you're at the gym...lord knows the WAS can take it the wrong way...lol.
I refrained b/c it just doesn't matter.
Anyway, keeping positive...I know that there is one final lesson to teach W...that I will go out being the responsible one- I know that it may be too soon to be in a R, but I have done alot of work on myself, seeing a therapist weekly for nearly 8 months, reading books and applying the knowledge, posting here, journaling, etc.
I am nearing the point of being ready to pursue other interests, and in order to do so w/ a free conscience, I must be willing to terminate my M...I do not want to follow W's footsteps of becoming involved w/ OP while still M'd...out of fairness to me, W, OP, and M.
I held out, I have been the beacon (or a beacon), and thus far, aside from some emotionally charged mistakes and outbursts, I have been a good H through THE WORST situations possible...
This is my final action as a good H...and one of a nice run as a good man...
