MLC Saga, contd...

[elfie]

Celestial,
Like I said before, I find this MLC ordeal as something scary among other things, something like a "twilight zone" sort of existence, for both the MLCer and LBS I guess. The feeling that all of these spouses have been abducted by aliens and that this can't really be happening in reality, it happens only in movies. That this is just a nightmare and when I wake up one morning my life will have returned to normal again.

"I often wonder if my H will ever wake up? He honestly believes I`m the reason for his unhappiness. If he does wake up, will he be man enough to admit this?"

From what I have read so far in other sitches, all MLCers feel the same towards their spouses. They demonize them. I have seen the monster in my H's eyes when he looks at me. And it's very scary...

As far as them ever waking up, we all want to hope they will one day. Otherwise, it is so much like death. The loss of your mate for good...

I have this to say however regarding him being man enough to admit it when he wakes up:

After my first brush with H's MLC 4 years ago, when I got him back from the "edge" as he was ready to run into the sunset with ow, and we reconciled, and I saw my old H again, when I asked him what it felt like when he was acting like a crazy person in a state of panic, he couldn't identify with the mad person and was asking me to tell him what he had looked like. When I described to him how scary he was, he was looking at me in disbelief and a little scared himself to hear the description. He had said to me then: "I don't know what had come over me". He had completely disassociated with the MLC person then and he had no memory of himself acting like he had. How about that?

Now I think that what must have happened then, is that with my intervention at that time I stopped H's progress to the next stages and as a result 2 years later, with his issues still unresolved, he started the cycle again with worse symptoms this time.

Any comments?