feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Hey J -

He seems very consistent with being cold and then will do something like above or talk about the future (moving) or whatever. He tells me to move out and is not wearing his ring so anything he says to me cannot be trusted.

Yes..it is horrible to be dealing with all of this and his traveling on top of it. He goes and comes back for a few days...goes and comes back. He is gone so much it's ruined our family and is now affecting kids more than ever. Which is why I have to get him out of here. He is always angry and drinking throughout the day. Last night he was yelling at younger son and told him to "f off" and called him an "effing brat." I stopped it right away. I agree our son can be disrespectful but no way should a parent talk to their child like that.

I look at my H and wonder where he went. I wish he would end all of this but I am wishing on a DEAD star. I am still L hunting as I have not found someone I am willing to hand over my future to..just yet.

Luv