I see what you mean Kalni. I guess I am guilty of some of the same things that you describe about yourself in the past. But I was also challenging myself to accept him, to make peace with reality, to change what I could change, etc. Unfortunately I wasted a lot of time and energy on cheeseless tunnels.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.