Well, flo, I didnt mean it qute the way you "got" it. I meant the fantasy of a better life, not of a person (the person was not a fantasy, it was reality for me) I did all those things before he got into an A, remember, I think I have told you as well, I was far from being the perfect partner, still, never cheated or thought even of cheating on him. I was stuck in resentment, unable to move forward or change things. I tried and tried the same things over and over... became bitter, mean, snappy.
Nothing jsutifies his behavior, NOTHING, there is no way, his behavior can be presented as a result of my doing, but I understand, I understood from day one, the shock woke me up, and then, I was stuck for months with the question "why wouldnt he give us a chance, since I had gotten it why wouldnt he?" I couldnt believe the family he was tearing apart. OW was the missing piece of the puzzle back then...
Grrr, thinking of her, makes me mad... OK, counting,1, 2, 3, 4,5, 6,7, 8, 9, 10... K
