W and I didn't have any good opportunities to have our talk this weekend. I'll see if there's time tonight when she drops our son off.
I kept my cool. I acted like it didn't bother me at all. I never said one word about them. I didn't want our time together w/ S8 to be one that revolved around the divorce papers. BTW they are B.S., she is asking for far more then we had discussed before she got the lawyer. I'm not surprised. I figured once the lawyer got her teeth into my W they would control her.
Since we had the weekend planed w/ S8 I let W stay the weekend. At some point Saturday S8 asked her if she was sleeping in our bed or on the couch. She told him the couch. Of course she slept with me in our bed both nights. Sunday before she left for work she made the couch look like she slept in it. I asked her why do you lie to him about it. She said she didn't want to confuse him. I said he's not the only one confused and went back to bed. She came in and kissed me goodbye. In fact she did it both mornings. It was like nothing had changed for a moment.
Before she left last night, we went over her schedule for next week. Once again it was all over the place. She has everyone confused. I expressed my disapproval and walked outside.
W came out after me, said she was sorry for the crazy schedules lately. I said I'm sure you are. She said I'm doing my best, this isn't easy for me either (her theme). I don't get to see S8 for more than a couple hours a week. I said I'm sure it's hard for you.
She started to cry, between night school this last month and work switching me to nights I'm never going to see him. I let her cry for a while, looked at her and said you know what you can do to change all of this and I walked away.
I don't know what doors are open to talk about our R. I know she want's to talk. All she says is she doesn't want to talk because I'm going get angry and I don't want to hear what she has to say.(I won't do that of course) She uses that line often.
I get the feeling she wants me to initiate the conversation about out R. She will ask me when I'm clearly in deep thought what I'm thinking. I give her some B.S. answer because I'm not supposed to start the R conversations, right? This goes against DB'ing? I'm not sure what to do.
I catch her looking at me all the time. You know the look. Not the lustful look but the I like looking at you look.
