Remember your words to me- it's just a piece of paper. Nothing much will change whether you have it or not, but you keep focusing on yourself and DD.
I think you're right (or FM?) in that the worst is not to know. Plunging in and finding out what you're dealing with seems impossible, but will probably be somewhat of a relief b/c you won't be wondering and making stuff up anymore- you'll know what you're dealing with. Keep us posted. It helps me to keep (trying to) help you and my other friends, so yes I will keep posting to the extent I can.
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.