Are there signs?

[nicole8]

Hey wild- I am feeling all of things you are feeling. I am just so irritated and have decided that my h is extremely selfish. My h has decided to leave our m and be a high schooler again and live with his mom. He has left everything for me to take care of. We don't have kids, so I really can't even begin to understand how much harder this is for you. We have a dog and it has been extremely rough on our dog....I can't even immagine how your kids feel. The dog can't stop wagging his tail and trying to climb on the h when he comes by. Kuddos to you though for being the mature one in the relationship. Way to step up to the plate....your w doesn't realize it now but she will one day and she will kick herself for being so selfish.

I personally have decided yet again to go dark and not initiate contact with my h. Easier to do when there are no kids. Me not contacting my h seems to panic him....he'll text me and tell me he is confused and doesn't know what to do. I like an idiot will always respond and validate how he feels and then tell him I don't believe in divorce. Well I am sure this just reasures him that I am still in the "game" and he can continue doing what he is doing. Well new inning, I am now going to tell him next time I am not so sure what it is I want.... The h usually wants to know where I am and who I was with....interesting. I am contemplating tellling him that j am going to start dating because I don't know what it is I want. Turn the table a little on him.....put some fear in him. Or maybe he won't care. I don't know.

Sorry to rant on your thread. Just wanted you to know you aren't the only one going through the different emotions and feelings. The grass is never greener on the other side