The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

Oh..Just thought I'd let you all know who've been reading along with me this past year...

I was in the hair salon on Saturday with D12. She got a haircut and I got some color...In walks the OW and her two children!

I knew OW went to the same salon, although usually on Fridays. My hairstylist, who is a friend, knew of my situation and looked at me in the mirror and mouthed (Oh!)..

I recognized OW from her FB picture and the fact that she had a tattoo on her calf(the first thing I saw and it just clicked who she was)...

I don't think she noticed or knew me or D12...It just threw me. Brought some emotions of hurt and rejection to the surface that I thought had really diminished more, but I did OK. Didn't interact with her and left with D12 when I was done.

Outside I asked D12 if she knew who the lady was with the (loud) kids-only b/c my hairstylist and I had been acting a bit funny after seeing OW and D12 had been watching OW and her kids closely while waiting for me...D12 didn't recognize OW ... but when I told her the lady was OW, D12 said "You should smash her car!" D12 has such anger! I said I wasn't angry(and I wasn't!) and that forgiveness is important and I hoped she would get there someday. I explained that H and I were not getting a divorce b/c of OW. I reminded D12 that H had moved home and we were doing OK but H still had some growing to do and couldn't do it married to me... She settled down a bit. I hope she does learn to forgive her father someday soon.