Eric, thank you for the words of encouragement. I seriously feel like giving up...this fight is wearing me thing and she just seems like she wants to continue being away from me. I guess the grass is really green around her right now. I find myself hoping that she will never find happiness and that she will always get screwed over by everyone she ever meets. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but I need to get it off my chest. I want to be happy and when she is around or when she talks about our kids it really just pisses me off. I see her and I want her around but when she is around she is always on her phone and smiling like this is the best kept secret around. I just don't know how what I did was that bad? Was it so bad?
I did have a good weekend with my kids. But she ended up going to the mall and my daughter told me they went and said hi to mommies "friend" the one she said she wasn't going to talk to any more. She is so confusing to me. I'm find myself wondering if she is worth my time. I know that I can try for a long time but do I want to be wasting my energy when I could be expending it on other things?
I'm just confused and frustrated....
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
