WAW and me in 11th hour!!!!

[Ken62]

Well it was quite the weekend. I was pretty down for a lot of it having realized that when you go NC and stop all the initiating that you stop hearing from your WAW because YOU were the only one initiating contact. Was very busy with shows Friday night (didn't go out afterwards), two shows on Saturday (went out between shows and after night show) and final show on Sunday afternoon followed by a cast party Sunday night. Trying to get out and GAL with the cast who have been VERY supportive.

D19 was always planning on coming to Sunday show but W also came. I talked to her a little after the show. Thanked her for coming asked her about a certain number in the show and she gave me a very odd answer. She knew several people in the show and talked to them for a little bit as well. The consensus from some of them was that W did not seem to be "put together" like she usually is. Very little makeup if any and very distracted and timid.

I really wasn't sure if W was coming to see the show and take it as a positive that she did. I'm sure it was hard for her to come to the show. Others think that she was trying to make her self look good by supporting me and they could be right but I'll keep the positive feelings I have that she came at all.

After cast party talked to an old high school friend about my sitch and caught her up to speed. We ended up talking for three hours and that was helpful. Detaching from W and giving space to both me and her seems to be the best thing all around right now.

Trying to plan some things with some cast members going forward so that I don't go crazy with all my new found free time. S24 is coming to town on Thursday for a week. He mentioned that he had a 2.5 hour phone call with W last week and 2 hours were good and last .5 was bad because it dealt with OM. He had to be very careful with what he said and how he said it to W because she can go off on the kids just as easily as she does with me if they say the wrong thing. (Play of one!)

I really do think that NC is the right way to go. I still have to finalize the taxes so I may need to send an e-mail update about that to her and I'm not sure how much I'll see her while S24 is in town. Not sure if he'll spend any nights over at W apartment or not but he certainly can do anything he wants while he is home.

That's it for now.