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[awest1217]

I am not sure, but H text me on Friday and he was there so I am pretty sure he can text while he is there. Even then, he could have text me last night on his way home to ask how S was doing. There is really no excuses anymore. Either he wants to be a full time father or not. He doesn't get to sometimes be a dad, which is the only thing that scares me about the D because he has never consistently seen S so I am very scared about him canceling or trying to always switch because he is busy and that is not how it works.

Work is going well. I am tired, but the beautiful sunshine is keeping me going. The next 4 weeks here is busy so hopefully that will make them go by quickly. Then 3 more weeks and it is summer vacation. I have to switch rooms and set things up in my new room, but I am still very excited to have a break and we will see then where things are at and probably be filing which is so hard. I finally told him I wanted to file and now it is just actually doing it. I so don't want to end my M, but I don't have any other options. I just feel deep down like H is sitting somewhere thinking "I won" because I am the one who is gonig to file so I am the "bad guy".

Oh well...two more classes then I get to go enjoy this beautiful day!