For the most part I have days when I hardly think about all this mess, but then sometimes when money is short, or we have a birthday or a special occasion, it makes me sad because he is missing out on beautiful memories with those he used to love and those who loved and still love him. Our twins granddaughters always talk about grandpa....remember things they did together, and funny stuff that happened to him, and I beleive God does give us free will and he doesnt interfere with that..... If we didnt have free will he would always make our choices for us and then why would we need him????? Glad to hear from you B/H hope you are doing well.....we are having beautiful weather down here in the Dallas area spring is here.everything is budding everywhere all things are becoming brand new again......