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[pandora]

had a work meeting so had to stop...

I am all for more change though, don't get me wrong. But you bring up a good point which I have done a great job pushing away.

Learn how to be comfortable as your own person. It can be as simple as doing a little thing just for yourself every day.

I actually keep myself super busy to a point that I think I am running away from reality. I hang out with friends, do stuff, etc. But at the core of it, I'm not in it to take care of me and be comfortable with me. I hate myself and feel like a huge failure. Objectively, I get that this kind of self-hate is not good but well, I just feel so awful about myself. I am at a point where I really don't understand why this is happening...even after this has been going on for so long...