H and I have not been sitting down for our nightly "t" time (tea and talk). This is probably why I have felt moodier over the last few days. I can always start to feel the anxiety build up when we let our talks slide for awhile. We have spent time together and even hired a babysit yesterday afternoon but just have not talked about our feelings, etc...
I was surprised at last nights pillow talk when H mentioned he has been feeling more remorse lately. It caught me off guard especially when he said he had a good cry a couple nights ago. We both agreed we need to sit down for a talk about what we both have been feeling lately. Then I fell asleep in H's arms. What a difference compared to last fall when I used to sleep in the middle of the king bed alone. Or if it was a night H decided to sleep in the marital bed, how he would cling to the edge - I was always amazed he never fell out as he was so close to the edge.
I have noticed that H's relationship with DD's has just blossomed. The girls WANT to spend time with H and give H their undivided attention. It is amazing how when H invests his energy and time with them, how they repay it back tenfold.
And H has started to wear his wedding band again.
Sometimes I am overwhelmed at what work we still need to do to stay on course but I see positive changes so far and just need to keep at it.
