The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Sorry, on impulse I came out and dropped in on the group. Not being rude, but haven't really caught up yet. Trying to be careful of the hope-dope (as my mc calls it) that runs rampant here. It's good to keep hope. It is. But it can be unhealthy.
You may be right. By her own admission I always treated her very well. I am "hot" or so my friends tell me (funny story: I met up with a local support group and had met an organizer the week prior without knowing she was part of that. When I showed up, one of of the others in the group asked her, "is this the good looking guy you were talking about?" - good for me ego so far

I realized that in 20 years she found one thing she can try to use to blame me - that makes me darn near perfect in her eyes. I guess she may have a few issues with that. Don't know. Don't really want to care either, but sometimes I still do. Less and less though which is good.

I realized just how abused I've been. I'm shell-shocked or something similar. I have zero emotional ability at the moment, when it comes to giving to somebody romantically. Just nothing there for now.

I have made so many new friends and reconnected with so many old friends. I love that! I am really enjoying things so much more. More and more each day I let a piece go as best I can and I can feel the stress rolling off. I am really liking that.

And you? I'll catch up with your thread a little later today. Work calls.....

AJ