New here but have been a voyeur

[Truegritter]

The only thing I really FEAR is that process continues to be a speed bump in becoming truly healthy. By design it has the goal of keeping the M. I very much want that. I am not sure W can ever get there.

I am finding that I am struggling with the fact that my W continues an A. I know she is on her journey and I can't force this. But I am finding I don't want this as part of my life. It's like I'm walking arounding with a knife sticking out of my chest.

I should probably post this on my thread.

I guess I am coming to a cross road. The picture IS becoming clear and the only variable is time.