Need a Plan for My Marriage

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I am not tired, but I know I should get some sleep. I have a headache which I seem to have often these days. I am hungry at all these days. I did eat more than ususal this weekend which I guess is good. I had a gusher of a nose bleed tonight. I guess I have been blowing it to much. I cannot understand the mind of a cheater and one that does not have any remorse for it.

Our MC called Friday, but I have not heard from him in weeks, and I did not appreciate how he talked to me last time. I will call him tomorrow, but I did not on Friday because he makes me feel worse about things even though he knows my wife is cheating. I am just about through with this whole counseling thing. It is not helping I think. I am just tired of my whole life with this wife that I supposely love so much and treats me worse than dirt. I do not understand why she does this when she is the one cheating.