Thanks Broklyn,
I was hoping someone would help point me in the direction to get this.

Im not sure if to just set it in my mind to give up on there being a "us" with him. Seems like it would be easier just to let it go away instead of trying to figure out where its going.

**im tired and this is mountain is big

I going to find some more articles..
thanks again

M 36/ H 40
4 children
HMLC= 5/2009
sign d 3/2010 (to be final 6/10)
m16yrs/17yrs in Sept

resource for me:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1964990&page=1