Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Hey GM. That's great news. Good that she is at least willing to give you an opportunity. I would love for my W to say the same to me but I don't think she is quite there...yet. You have a wondeful opportunity GM, show her your consistency. Knock her socks off. Good job!

Ok, update on my sitch. What a weekend of highs and lows. I had been feeling a bit down Friday night and Saturday. I think I just wanted this process to be further along by now and got a little down. Good thing for me now is that I can see that darn old depression when it wants to kick in but I don't let it now. Beautiful weekend so I got out and enjoyed the wonderful weather. So I had about a day of feeling down but pulled myself up. Only got about 1 1/2 hours of sleep last night. I was up listening to music and thinking about my W coming over to the house today to plant flowers. I was going over it in my mind.

Went to church this morning and it really lifted my spirits. Went to the house after church and washed the car. No house work today...thankfully. So I'm washing the car and wondering if the W will really come over to plant flowers like she said. A little while later she arrives with a bunch of flowers to plant. I was a bit surprised that she actually did it, I figured she would shy away. Her GF came over to help her with the flowers. At first I thougt my W brought her friend so my W wouldn't have to be alone with me but that wasn't the case aas my W and I had plenty of alone time before her friend arrived and after her friend left.

When my W and I talked on Friday I told her that Home Depot had my favorite flowers in stock. I wanted to see if she would get one to plant or not. Well, she did buy one and told me that she got it for me because it's my favorite to plant every year. I thought that was pretty good that she thought enough to buy it for me and made a point of telling me she bought it for me. Means she must have been thinking of me. We walked through the house together and looked at all of the work I had done. She was very nice and complimented me mny times. My W even offered to do some chores around the house. We're going to list the house for sale tomorrow.

When my W first arrived she came up to me with her arms crossed again. She definitely is still a bit guarded when she first sees me. Within a couple of minuetes she was fine and relaxed. I make sure to make her feel comfortable. She stayed for about an hour and we had another very friendly conversation...still no R talk and I'm not bringing it up. Even her friend talked to me and was nice. May not sound like a big deal but this is the same friend my W goes with to the gym and I've been seeing them there but have kept my distance. So, I wasn't sure if my W's friend would be nice to me or not. She was very nice and just like when my W and I would go out with her.

All in all, another very good interaction with my W. In our past few conversaions we haven't even come close to arguing. It's nice. I took a lot of positives from this today. The friendly interactions are nice but deep down I wish we could get to the next step of actually working on the M. I keep reminding myself that these friendly interactions will help build her trust back for me and then we can hopefully try to talk about M.

After my W left she was going to the grocery store and then meeting her ame GF to go for a walk for some exercise. She's basically living the exact same life and doing the same things before we did together she left in October. She told me she will call me tomorrow. She's starting to initiate more contact. Just don't know if it's because things are getting better or if she's just being patronizing?


Well that's all for now. I can't even make a coherent thought right now...exhausted from the 1 1/2 hours of sleep last night. I will add that I was very upbeat today with her. I thanked her for planting the flowers and said they look great. She asked me what I thought about the flowers she bought and if I liked where she planted them. She really seems to be asking my opinion a lot lately. Moving in the right direction it seems...